patty1019
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Re:To Talk or Not To Talk? - 2005/03/03 20:35
hi,
well, it's like remembering something while you're asleep and you feel like you're there re-living it all over again. who knows but that we are. there are times when i've gone out of body, maybe due to drowing, maybe the normal ties that keep ones spirit in one's body has failed to do so in my case. that being so, it happens without notice of any kind when i'm wondering about something. it happens even in my sleep. i've had dreams that people came to take me flying and i dreamed i pulled leaves off the tree outside my second story bedroom window. when i woke up the next morning i was really tired and had leaves in my hand and muddy feet and legs. i have no idea what went on other than what i dreamed.
i've had visions in my sleep numerous times which scared the daylights out of me. i saw friends and a family member, all different incidents, die. it felt like i was actually there, i had all my senses and could feel the air and smell it. i told my brother about the one i had of him dead in his car. i described everything in a detailed letter. 2 days before he got his his girlfriend had had the same vision in her sleep and told him all the same details i had written down. i had prayed that god would give the vision to someone close to him that he'd listen to. i didn't contact any of them as i knew what people would think of me and i might be locked away somewhere nice and safe. i had never been to two of the places and didn't know that one of them had been doing undercover in our town while living in another city. for the two where i'd never been i knew who had been there to see things and so i detailed it all for them to see if what i'd experienced matched. the girl was shot 6 times in the neck and chest by her husband. the guy hit a tree on a three wheeler. all my details matched exactly. the guy's place of death had only been opened that very day by the state. it was on state property. i drew a detailed sketch of the entire area and showed which side of his head hit the tree. my sister in law who'd been there when it happened who looked my picture over nearly fainted it was so exact. with the last guy whom i saw murdered i saw the murderer too. i told the family the guys description and what color his car was, make and model. it's a guy who's known as being connected to organized crime in that town. i not only saw him walk up to the car of my friend i saw him take out a gun and aim it down through his chest as he sat in his car. i felt like i'd been shot and felt myself slide out of my body only to discover it had been my friend who'd endured it. the same happened with the other two friends i thought it was happening to me and it really scared me. the one that hit the tree left a lasting impression of a very bad headache on the same side that he'd hit the tree. the girl's death that i saw happened two days after my dream of being there when it happened. the guy on the three wheeler, it was two days after my dream. my brother he was coming home in less than two weeks. he cancelled his leave to come home on new years. seeing and experiencing these things is just plain weird but it has given me insight into things such as other do not know of. why am i this way? i don't know but some call it god given abilities. i call it a curse sometimes.
does it still work? yes, recently i had a very strong urge to photograph a friend of mine where i moved from. we didn't have time to stop that day. she died before i could get back to her. i talked with her about dying when i last saw her. whenever anyone i know is about to die i get a very strong urge to take their picture. needless to say, those who know about it cringe when i take their pictures. some ask if they are going to die soon. grandma didn't ask but mom asked me to stay with grandma for about 4 days to help her out. i told her i could not. she asked why and i told her because grandma was going to die in 3 to 4 days. she died of a massive heart attack around midnight of the third day. guess that made it the 4th day. grandma and i talked about her dying the last i saw her. she wanted me to help mom when she passed on herself. i believe she knew she would be going soon after and said something to that effect. i told her not to say that but she was not afraid and not resigned to it, just at peace with it. mom came to me to tell me something and i reminded her that i'd already told her that grandma would die. mom remembered then too and stood there with her mouth open. she wanted to know how i did that. i didnt' know myself. all i could say was that when i knew something like that i prayed for the person to be allowed to stay if it was god's will. i didn't want to lose grandma.
some of them come back to tell me things after they pass over. it's scary for me to be sitting there minding my own business, and even when i'm in the bathtub, and there they are. i can't see them but i can smell them, their perfume, and i can hear them with my mind. the one who hit the tree was very excited saying, "it's not at all like they said it would be like in sunday school!" he said this three times in a row. i was trying to cover up, deal with the sucking away of the heat from the whole room and the bath water. i was telling him i got the message, now please go where you're supposed to be with god and oh, thanks alot for sucking the heat out of my bath water. i had just run it and it would take a half hour to get any more hot water. he laughed and thanked me for listening to him. he was happy i could hear him. it freaked me out. i told him, "no offense man, but you're dead and this is weirding me out!" my sister in law had a similar experience with him and said all she could do was keep telliing him to get out! lol. later she was crying at the pain he had to have felt. i told her he wasn't feeling it anymore if he did at all. i told her it was over. she had been to church too, wanted to know if it was true that we are still alive after our body dies. i told her i'd talk to him to see if there was something he could tell me that only she would know. it was something i didn't know. he showed me and told me what to say, saying to say it word for word just like he told me to say. lol he said to put my hands on both sides of her head, make her look me in the eyes, and say, "shut the f*** up!" lol i didn't know it was a greeting of sorts for them and i substituted another word for the f word as i didn't cuss. he told me he wanted me to do it again and i told her i didn't do it right and please don't hit me for saying a bad word. she said ok and i did it again. she cracked up laughing and crying at the same time. she kept saying he's alive! she was so happy. minutes later she told me how that was their little secret greeting to each other. lol i'm just glad she didn't hit me!
so, you see, i've had some "other" experiences that most people will never have. i don't know why but it's interesting and it's enlightening to say the least. i know that i will be alive yet when my body dies. i know where i want to go to and i know where i don't want to go to, lol. i hope that all who read this understand that i'm not a kook but just someone who seems to be blessed. some think it's an evil thing but i know it has helped everyone i've gotten messages for. some don't like it at first but later they usually come back around and apologise telling me how it actually helped them. hey, it's not easy to tell people some of these messages. it requires alot of thought to understand that they've been given a great gift of a message from their loved one.
i hope to help eveyone who comes to your site understand these things. i don't have all the answers but maybe i can help ease their fears.
something that's been on my mind is whether someone in your family likes wolf pictures or has american indian bloodlines. it feels so much like someone sees the spirit of the wolf as being strong and steady and they value this. the indians speak of totems such as this who protect those of us who are native american. i didn't grow up indian but was raised irish/german/american. i know about the totems from internet sources and others. they talk of the totem animal as sometimes visiting us so that we can see, hear, and smell them. there is also characteristics allotted to the wolf by the indians which you might want to read up on.
bye,
patty1019
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